I am in a rut. I’m feeling stuck and pathless. I’m feeling uninspired both in life and with the blog.
Let’s start with the blog. Most of the time, I have this little voice in the back of my head telling me to not compare yourself to other bloggers and content creators. Lately, that voice hasn’t been enough. I see all my favorite bloggers and YouTubers doing all these fun things and getting all these followers and I can’t help but compare myself to them. I wonder when my blog will get that popular. Guys! These thoughts are not healthy. I know that, but I’m human and I think them.
Next, the thing we call life. Like I said, I’m feeling stuck and pathless. My life has definitely gone down a different path than I thought it would. I’ve accepted that and I’m okay with it. However, this fact has been weighing on me lately. I’m a tiny bit scared that this stuck feeling won’t go away. I know this sounds really ominous, but guys don’t worry. Yes, I might be a little depressed at the moment (I recognize it and I’m dealing with it.) but overall I’m a pretty happy person at the moment.
I’m just waiting for the universe to cut me a break and bring me something big and exciting (Obviously, I know all of this comes with hard work. I’m not just relying on the universe to give me instant gratification). I honestly think part of this for me is knowing that next year I turn the big 3-0 (which overall I’m pretty excited about) and I’m still in the same spot as I was in my early 20s.
So, what are the next steps for me? After Thursday (an exciting blog post is coming then, so look out for that), I will be stepping away from blogging for awhile. Lately, I’ve just been writing to get content out there and that was never my intention when I started this. I’m not going to write for the sake of writing. I want to write things I believe in and start to enjoy writing again.
I don’t want any of you to worry about me. I just need to get back into the right headspace and that’s just going to take some time.
Love you all.